I got in my car whenever I pleased, driving on highways to towns hours away!
I drove on huge highway ‘mix-masters’ elevated multi stories, maneuvering the figure 8 curves, able to gaze below.
Without a thought, I once did so much.
Now, it feels I have to give everything a thought…
“Will I be dizzy and nauseous today”? This is usually my first thought of my day.
“Will I be able to follow through with plans, even fun ones like getting my hair done (I didn’t the other day).
“Will I be able to accomplish anything”? I started 8 ‘projects’ this past week and didn’t complete one! They ranged from simple housework to writing my Blog (this being one of three I started).
“If Mike asked me to go out, could I”? Usually not… Oh, I have a million excuses for this one! A movie might have triggers, fun as it might be, no. As for eating out, places don’t stay open that late around here, besides the way smells affect me now which makes meals difficult.
I've lived a life of chronic dizziness since 2002. I was an employed, successful, respected C.O.T.A. with a 12 year career as a Pediatric Specialist. I loved my work, I actually looked forward to it each day. I was exposed to a virus while working and by the end of that day, I was running fever. I was treated by my GP first (a virus...duh!) I at least got anti-nausea medicine, then a referral to an ENT. Sound familiar? One and one half YEARS later, I was finally diagnosed. Labrynitits/Vestibular Neuritis which left a lesion or scar on my 8th Cranial Nerve. That's our 'balance nerve', how lucky was that?
So, after a long bout Depression, I decided the 'telling' of my dizzy journey would be a good thing. It's very tongue-in-cheek for the most part. While I do go into some very dark times while talking about the cause of my PTSD.
I write this blog, for the most part, hoping to help anyone living/dealing with Vestibular Disorders (you would be surprised how many different ones there are!).
I am an Ambassador for VeDA (NOT a typo), the Vestibular Disorders Association, a Grassroots group that has the most extensive resources out there in cyberspace. Google, Siri, any of them... All roads (links) lead to VeDA!
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