Last month I made a difficult decision. I have ‘retired’ as an Ambassador for the Vestibular Disorders Association/VEDA. This doesn’t mean I don’t support them, not at all. I believe they are the most advanced organization in the United States concerning Vestibular Disorders information, education, resources, and patient support. Period. I just decided to be a little selfish with my time.
My husband is nearing retirement and I feel I have waited my whole life to be with him. His work ethic has always been impeccable and he has worked since he was 16 years old. The only times he wasn’t working, he was recouping from his bizarre car accidents and I was taking care of him and raising two children. These were likely our most difficult years and to be brutally honest, I know our children suffered. I don’t know that the word ‘bullying’ gives enough weight to what they had to put up with. This was more of a mob mentality because it was literally the entire town that took part in it. Their teachers, principal, and ‘friends’ all took part in the bullying. Just writing about it is getting me so mad. It is the one thing I wish I had a ‘do over’, because there are countless things I’d do differently, I just didn’t know… So I suppose I feel it’s okay to take a bow (for now) and learn to enjoy what lies ahead.
I have this belief that when he does retire, I will finally be able to go for walks, out in nature, and I will be ‘fixed’… Just a dream? There is only one way to find out. Do it! I realized during our time at The Quiet House, I felt I was able to do more than I usually do at home. Enter Mother Nature… something about being outside, surrounded by trees, by water and majestic bluffs that I ‘almost’ forget my dizziness. Why is that?
I feel a big transition and adventure in our future. It’s going to be a good thing, a wonderful thing, a beautiful thing to once again be M&M 4-ever… just as we always dreamed.