Has a song ever ‘spoken’ to you so deeply that you felt it was written about you? I heard this song on a favorite T.V. show, “Grey’s Anatomy”. Okay, okay! I’ll admit it! I’m addicted to “Grey’s Anatomy”. I’ve always been interested in medical shows, both real and fictional. Maybe it’s because I’ve worked in and around hospitals for so many years. From my early teenage years, volunteering as a Candy Striper to my high school years Work/Study Program as a Nurse Aide, I’ve been around hospitals. I thought I would become a Nurse, that was certainly the plan. Instead, I married Mike at 18, I certainly found my voice then! Maybe it’s all the time spent in hospitals during Mike’s 2 car accidents and Sarah’s car accident? One would think, I’d had enough. Nooooo! I seem to be obsessed with medicals dramas that put me in a state of panic, anxiety, and dismay! Why would I continue such dysfunctional behavior? I do it, partly because of my obsession and partly because they (sometimes) throw in a ‘happy ending’ story and who doesn’t love a happy ending?
I recently watched a re-run episode and cannot get this song out of my head! “Grey’s Anatomy” is known for the music played within the shows, but this episode was an actual musical! The first time I saw it years ago, I didn’t get it. I thought it was kind of silly. Maybe it was my mindset, who knows? This time, though, it hit me like a brick wall! One song, in particular, continues to haunt me…”The Story” by Brandi Carlile. First, the melody stuck in my head. Then I had to find the video on YouTube. I have watched probably 10 times! Then, I had to find the lyrics. I said I was obsessed! But I find this song is so ‘us’…Because we all have a story to tell. Each story, just as important as the next. I’ve included an *excerpt* from it. Does this give a ‘voice’ to your feel at times?
You see the smile that’s on my mouth
It’s hiding the words that don’t come out
And all of my friends who think that I’m blessed
They don’t know my head is a mess
No, they don’t know who I really am
And they don’t know what I’ve been through like you do
And I was made for you…
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I’ve been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don’t mean anything
When you’ve got no one to tell them to
It’s true… I was made for you
Written by Phillip John Hanseroth • Copyright © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc
I encourage you all, to tell your story. Whether it’s in your private journal or a public forum such as your own blog. I have always found writing cathartic, so give it a try. My story has sounded like an episode of “Grey’s Anatomy” at times! Yes, I do have chronic illnesses, I also have had many happy endings! Life has changed since my Vestibular Disorder came knocking , no doubt, but finding my ‘voice’, has given me power in a sometimes powerless situation. Try to find your voice because we’re listening!